My memories,my life

2009-09-10T22:29:00.001+08:00

I don't know how to make my heart feels better......

2009-09-09T16:40:00.002+08:00

Don't you think it's better to be extremely happy for a short while, even if you lose it, than to be just okay for your whole life?

2009-08-31T16:09:00.001+08:00

i heart gathering. :)

2009-08-30T20:30:00.000+08:00

曾经这两个字
曾经的拥有，曾经的美丽，曾经的回忆。
虽然只是曾经但至少曾经拥有？
但我不想它只是曾经
好多的曾经，也许有一天你也忘记这个曾经

2009-08-28T14:02:00.001+08:00

As one grows older, you realised your circle of friends getting smaller or i shld say they are
caught up with their own stuffs and hardly meet up like what we used to. soon we will get used to it
and too lazy to ask them out and starts to distant from them. it sounds quite scary.
and people changes as well. people wear a mask. it so difficult to know whether are they true to you. and in end hurt and disappointment is what you get.
trust takes year to build up but can be destroyed within second.

bottom line: cherish those who are true to you:) and it takes time to know who are the truthful ones.

2009-08-23T20:19:00.001+08:00

Thot my blog is only meant for my eyes. Din know june was reading it as well :)
Anyway, my previous posts were sad and emo entries. not good not good.
I had picked myself up from where i fell so i shall divert all my strength and focus on BIOCHEMISTRY! hahaha. distinction is my goal! lol HD would be better though. =D
my mind is now occupied with proteins, amino acids..... eat more proteins so that we can get the 10 essential amino acids which our body cant synthesis! lol.

JIAYOU! and be strong with whatever that comes along:)

2009-08-16T03:13:00.004+08:00

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person..

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die.
Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation..

Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant

2009-08-09T16:00:00.002+08:00

保持沉默独自走过
空虚和寂寞它们陪伴着我
装作洒脱其实很懦弱
有太多的借口终究没有结果

2009-08-07T17:24:00.002+08:00

I am dead beat after a day of work. And.... I got school at 7pm. How i wish i can skip school.
sometimes, i wonder what the purpose of working and studying so hard?
I dun feel happy at all.
I only blog when i am unhappy cos i duno whom i can talk to.
oh well. negative thoughts again.
dont bother me.

2009-08-06T00:30:00.001+08:00

I've been having insomnia lately. =/

Tommorow is a long day for me. FASTER SLEEP SLEEP

I got to go count sheeps. BYE

2009-08-05T18:50:00.001+08:00

The hardest thing is to be happy when you are actually not! I so agree with it. I am feeling happy nor sad. No feeling.

Pamper and love yourself more so that others will love you more. Thats what ET told me=D
I think i have been torturing myself too much lately. My eyes bag and dark ring make me look so shag=/

I shall pamper myself with more shaker fries and face mask! =p

I got back genetic paper. Passed, not with flying colours thou. got to admit not 100 percent effort put in.

My thots are kinda disorganised that why my post also quite disorganised.Lol.

JIAYOU,KAILIN Be strong! =x

2009-07-23T10:10:00.001+08:00

i think my tiredness had reached its max this month! i feel so tired almost everyday. weekends if no work i will be sleeping to recharge my energy. i feel as if i was popping sleeping pills. hahah. that was how tired i was. i guess the tiredness had accumulated since last september. 21 more months to go! endure! sleeping can also be a form of escapisim.lol

exam is coming soon again! haiz. i really have no confidence in genetics. know what, i had failed one of my lab tests. i got 6 out of 25! that sucks! i had no confidence in myself. i just pray hard for a pass, please. no distinction is okay. please!! sometimes, i feel i am weak and imature to handle some emotional feelings, especially so when people ard you do not understand. =/ grow up,kailin! jiajiayou!

on a random note, i want to go orchard ion! hahah

2009-07-19T19:51:00.001+08:00

有人说平行线是可怕的,因为总是没有交点

但是我却觉得可怕的是交叉线,明明有过交集

却总会在某个时刻相互远离,越走越远

2009-06-06T15:24:00.001+08:00

never felt so stress before

2009-01-24T19:52:00.004+08:00

YEPYEP.I had survived the horrible 11 tooth surgery extraction and i am so glad i am able to eat now! Pardon my speed though.
Ate fish and co ytd and japanese buffet today. hahahaha. The buffet is damn expensive costing 50 bucks per person but i did not spend a single cent cos YUICHI treated me. hahahahaha.

CNY is near its doorstep. I am so looking forward to eating steamboat. yea. i am deprived of goodfood for the past few days.

HAPPY NIU YEAR PEEPS!!!Enjoy yourself with all the yummy goodies.. =))

2009-01-14T21:35:00.005+08:00

MY EXAM FINALLY ENDED YESTERDAY!!
Though it was not an easy paper, nevertheless i had tried my best. I think i did.
These 9 weeks were like hell mugging for immunology. Mugging at starbucks or fastfood restaurant for almost a week after work. It was horrible. I am glad it ended yesterday.
*Heave a sigh of relief*

2009-01-01T11:36:00.004+08:00

FIRST ENTRY OF 2009

*Kai lin shall be positive in everything
*Kai lin shall be willing to accept any new changes and challenges
*Kai lin shall accept any challenges with the courage and perservances
*Kai lin shall not dwell on any unhappy things that make her sad
*Kai lin shall be happier in the coming 2009!

let's make today a very good start of the year!

2008-12-31T22:34:00.006+08:00

Looking back on 2008 -last entry of 2008

*completed the yucky PBL and MP presentation
*Graduated from temasek poly
*Worked at fedex for six months
*Graduation ceremony
*started my first ever diploma related job on 4th sept2008
*enrolled in degree course in biomedical science

A fulfilling 2008 though with uncertainities setting in at certain point of time
what awaits for me in the coming 09?
For sure,challenges juggling between work and studies.
let embrace 2009 with hope, k

May everything goes smoothly for me and have the determination and perservace to face any challenges or setbacks that come along the way. Maintain bonds with my dearie friends and cherish everything lil things in life and not to be complacent in life. yea.

bye bye 2008 and hello to 2009 in another 1 hr 26 minutes

HAPPY 2009 !

2008-12-08T18:56:00.004+08:00

17 more days to christmas!!
24 more days to 2009!!
26 more days to test!!
36 more days to exam!!
Hello to my break in 37 days' time!!
lalalalala
i need help in lab report!!

2008-12-06T23:49:00.004+08:00

Its so ironic.When i am busy studying for test, i will complain not having time for myself.
when i am done with my test, i have no idea what to do during my spare time.
haha. i guess i am used to this hectic life of mine. I will be having a break after this module, not really feeling excited over it cos i think i will not get used to being so "free". free from stress? haha..
too bad theres no module i can take for that slot. watch youtube? duno what to watch? haha
i just remember i still have a lab report to write about agglutination of red blood cells and antibodies IgM and IgG..

2008-12-05T22:17:00.004+08:00

Nothing is permanent except changes and it always happen when ya least expect it.
there is no such thing as eternity as things are bound to change and its always so sudden.
i used to thought there is and it will happen, but i begin to doubt so.
oh well. its not meant to be an emo post.
2008 is ending soon and lets embrace 2009 with hope k!

okays. gotta mug mug. test tml. luck to me!
and theres work this weekend and on PH, all the way till next friday! :( SAD!!

2008-12-03T02:51:00.006+08:00

Guess what?! I am still not sleeping at this hour, which is 2.52AM because i am on night shift all alone by myself.
Life wasnt good for me.
Feeling STRESS, STRESS STRESS,. STRESS AND STILL STRESS!!
How i wish i would have more time for myself.
I am always trying to find time to study for my upcoming test!
four times a week of lesson and each session was full 3 hours with only like 10 minutes!! weekend was gone due to work and other stuff.
where to find time? even when i have the time, i am alrdy half dead with no more brain cells to memorise those so not easy immunology terms!
and now in order not to waste time, i am still studying.
after test, i still have lab report to rush which i have completely no idea how to do.
after which, a short christmas break before studying for another test and exams! i dun even dare to think abt it.
My last module exam was like two weeks ago if i am not wrong. two weeks to me seem two months.

2008-11-16T12:35:00.005+08:00

stumble upon Nat's blog and he wrote this

Relationships. Be it with Family, Friends or your Significant Other.
Keep the ones that matter, and trash the rest that don't.
There really isn't enough time to spend with the people who should and do matter.
Treat them the way they should be treated.

SO treasure the people around ya and spend quality time with them k?

2008-11-12T23:30:00.003+08:00

I realise i haven been in the sun for quite sometime cos i was always in the lab in the day and sch in the evening. lunch time was always eaten at the pantry due to the rainy weather. Weekend spent at home mugging. what a life i have! Basking in the sun feels good eh. Half day off today allowed me to have some time to be in the sun to feel the warmth it gives. it feels good. haha.. just some random thoughts. 19 more hours to my exam. ha. i am counting down. just relax and do my very best yea. luck to mee!

2008-10-29T10:54:00.002+08:00

The feeling of sick is so yucky.
Those pills and syrup taste so horrible!
Thank goodness i am on MC today.
Skipped lesson last night made me so guilty...
anyway, how to attend lesson when i was in a dying state??

2008-10-24T22:23:00.005+08:00

I am certified in BCLS.
I am done with my Molecular Biology practical and theory test (exams coming soon!)
I have survived through four weeks of sch.
PHEW
What a tiring and stressful week!! Mentally and physically drained. Whole body aching due to over exertion of muscles.
All i want to do now is to sleep all i can.
JB trip on mon! Massage and eat eat eat hahaha

2008-10-19T19:11:00.005+08:00

只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着

要怎么停呢

2008-10-18T20:58:00.003+08:00

It's so difficult to get those stuffs diffuse into my brain! All those DNA sequencing, PCR cloning, sythesis of oligonucleotide, tranoposable elements and their different classes blah blah blah.. how to express proteins and purify them and i have basic cardiac life support test next week as well. Those steps in doing the CPR, the no. of compression and breath and even the volume of air ventialiated.
so many things to memorise can! i am going crazy, seriously! how can i remb so much info in these two days??

2008-09-28T17:43:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JUE XIU AND VANESSA!!!

2008-09-23T21:15:00.003+08:00

PEETURES UPDATES!!

20/09/08

Quite a last min met up with my darlings joann and wanyun for dinner. Girls' talk and cam whoring session were great! you girls made my day. looking forward to next meet up at joann's hostel.=)) i hope it's going to be very soon.

22/09/08

Watched mama-mia with sis after work. Songs were great!

Lastly, somehow munching non stop on this mini chocoalte chip cookies helps to DESTRESS!!

2008-09-18T21:39:00.005+08:00

Will friends drift apart when not in touch often?
Will friends drift apart when we start working and have our own lives?
Are friends considered friends when they are not in contact for months?
I certainty hope not and never will it be.
To all my dearest friends, just want to tell ya that i care alot for you all! hahaha..
I guess its because sch is starting soon and i cant meet with ur that often like we always do.. FYI, my timetable is freaking packed, like 4 times a week! Pls try to accomodate my schedule to meet me can..

2008-09-13T19:10:00.009+08:00

My life revolves around work and friends and soon will be studies and of cos not forgetting my family. haha.

WORK

Work offically started last thur and so far so good. adapting in process.However,I can feel the stress and responsibilities.oh wells. just pray hard things will go smoothly yea. have faith in myself. My hands is once again linger with the smell of gloves. haha..

FRIENDS

060908-Trip to chinese garden

My first and last time visit to chinese garden, i think. Admission ticket is kinda ex costing 15 bucks for adult.

080908-gathering @waraku

Met up with my girlfriends on mon and dined at waraku. It felt good meeting them once in a while, keeping each other updates on our lives. It's not easy to meet up since everyone of us is so caught up with our own stuffs be it studies or work. This gathering is also not complete as our dear zhiyi had fallen ill. Pls do take care of yourself yea.

120908- meet up with june
Finally met up with june yesterday after like so long. She passsed me the goodies she had bought from taiwan. thank you so much!had a great talk with her. it felt great.

Singapore Biennale has started and i cant wait to meet up with my biennale friends! it had been so long since we last met up as our meeting had been postponing for umpteen times..

SCHOOL

As for sch, it is starting soon, end of month. by the time, i will be scheduled to do shifts and busy juggling between studies and work. oh man, i seriously cant imagine that. it's gonna be a challenge for me.

You always move in the direction of your most dominant thoughts

2008-09-11T18:48:00.005+08:00

S.H.E 沿海公路的出口

倘若说放一次手
就像咳一个嗽
　　我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔

2008-09-01T21:00:00.001+08:00

HAHA. Chanced upon this peeture in one of the emails ET sent in 2006.
oh wells, those were the days!
Been blogging quite often cos i was too bored la.

2008-08-30T21:53:00.007+08:00

克羅地亞的天空 Croatia’s Sky

a song sang by derrick ho wei jian. its damn nice and touching. there's a story behind this song.

歌曲是描述一个悲剧收场的爱情故事

一位男生来不及为生重病的爱人实现梦想的爱情故事
“有張明信片你一直不肯丟常對著它發呆好久一座心形島嶼在蔚藍海中美麗得讓你愛不釋手”
歌曲里头的“心形島嶼”

其实真的就在“克羅地亞 Croatia”

是一座叫做“Galešnjak”的岛屿



picture obtained from http://www.find-croatia.com/blog/heart-shaped-croatian-island

克罗地亚的天空

后院的蒲公英逐渐失去笑容我始终不懂浇多少水才够

没有你的屋子变得好残旧失去制造新记忆的渴求
有张明信片你一直不肯丢常对着它发呆好久一座心形岛屿

在蔚蓝海中美丽得让你爱不释手

于是我拼了命地搜索找寻那座岛屿的下落唯一对你许下的承诺

就是要牵着你的手漫步在你梦想中的天国

白色的蒲公英带着梦散落在我深爱你的天空像纷飞的雪花飘在夏天的风

温热的气候不会有寒冬我用力地握着你的手

翱翔在通往幸福的天空这景象一直都是你梦寐以求

牵着手我们一起签收

好不容易真的有线索在亚得里亚海某个角落带着你飞过半个地球

奔向你梦想的出口你的声音却越来越微弱

我只需要多一分钟给你最后一次感动你的呼吸却变沉重
白色的蒲公英带着梦散落在克罗地亚的天空像纷飞的雪花飘在夏天的风

温热的气候心忍受着寒冬我用力地握着你的手

翱翔在没有幸福的天空这景象一直都是你梦寐以求

却只剩我代替你签收

多希望你能睁开双眸

2008-08-28T20:46:00.002+08:00

OUCH OUCH

My mouth is in pain now!!

I can't talk properly.I can't sleep! I can't eat! it makes me lose my appetite. Shucks.

Pls let me get well soon..

2008-08-24T00:20:00.000+08:00

These few days, i had rather unpleasant encounter with wateer. haha.

First of all, i was caught in the rain for like three times. I did bring an umbrella and tot to myself thank goodness, i will not be drenched and who knows when i opened it up, it was spoilt. it was like still in usuable condition few days back. i tot it was okay as it was only drizzling. oh wells. weather is rather unpredicable and the rain got heavier and heavier and i had to run and the bus stop is quite a distance away. I was drenched from head to toes, water dripping down from my face and finally i reached the traffic light. there is this auntie who was carrying an umbrella and i thought she would like show some sympathy on me as i was so drenched but she did not. she stood there seeing me getting wet.

Second time was my cam got wet due to my carelessness for not capping my water bottle well. I was so angry with myself cos all my photos inside my mem card will be gone for good. i almost cried. this is the second time experiencing the loss of photos.. that time was my CR R got stuck inside my DVD player. luckily, my cam and mem card were saved. Air drying it worked. haha. i am lucky.

Third time and hopefully the last.
Almost three quarter full of cup with coke spilled on my shoes and again due to my carelessness. i duno what to say. was catching a movie with friends and when we were abt to leave, for duno what reasons, the coke spilled on me. how unlucky can i be. oh wells.

2008-08-20T22:15:00.005+08:00

Today marks my last day at Fedex JP IA team. I had been working there for six freaking months! Can you imagine that? I never thought i would work for long. I leave fedex with a mixed feelings, sad to leave a place which i had been working for so long and happy for a start of another chapter in my life. I certainly will miss the place which i had so much fond memories, too many to say in details and its a wonderful experience to work in a comsopolitian workplace..

I will miss

-finding xuelin whenever i am bored

-"obviously"weixian

-"goldfish" yuichi

-yusuke who always like to make fun of me

-lunch kakis joy who likes to "er er er liao liao liao with her thai friends

-not forgetting adrian, aya, kyoko, yukiko.saki

- and JP-JP REBILL HAHA

-and terms like "soka", "daijobu","otsukaresama"

-walking to ubi under the scorching hot sun with xuelin for three consecutively days

alright. life has to move on.. who knows, somewhere sometime we might bump into each other.hahaha

2008-08-20T03:39:00.011+08:00

突然想以华文来写我的心情。从一位朋友得知他喜欢的女生最终还是选者了她的男友。友人有一种被欺骗的感觉，女生仿佛给了他错误的迅号让他以为位自己有希望，让他馅入了无法自拔的地步。友人应该是被伤得很深让他没有信心在去喜欢上另一个人甚至为了保护自己不惜伤害对方（下一断恋情,或喜欢的人）。想法好偏激不是吗？

这不仅让我想起两年前的我。如今事过境迁，我也不在难过，也逐渐把它谈忘。我没有用忘记这两个字因为我很清楚有些事一旦发生就很难从记忆力被抹掉。

如果有一天，你再次找到那种对的感觉，你还会有勇气去追求那份幸福吗？

2008-08-17T17:09:00.008+08:00

面对你的时候

我不会舍不得

因为你已是过客

因为路有些曲折

是美的

2008-08-12T09:34:00.002+08:00

Oh wells. I am bored at work, so i decided to drop by my blog.
It had been in a hiatus state for quite sometimes.
Guess what?! I saw my younger sis doing cross stich early in the morning. I was surprised to see her doing it. Since when she is into doing cross stich? Since when did this toyboyish sis of mine started doing such feminine stuffs? the world is changing!
i should start doing some reflections on myself.

2008-06-06T14:19:00.002+08:00

LAUGHING OUT LOUD feels good..

HAHA

2008-05-02T14:25:00.002+08:00

Well, i was browsing thru my email just now deleting junk emails which had been accumulating for a long long time

Saw those proposal, instructions given by team leader , PBl proposal, Major project files etc which reminded me how time flies and those time spent doing PBL seemed so long ago..

2008-04-23T12:29:00.002+08:00

MY CRAVINGS!

Ruffles (bbq)
Mocha frappe (cafe cartel)
fried mushroom(Century square)
Chicken chop (Mensa)
Apple green tea

i am HUNGRY!
gimme FOOD

LOL

2008-04-08T21:10:00.006+08:00

hate it when things doesnt go the way i want

remember too much expectations lead to disappointment

what kind of feelings is that?

2008-03-23T20:01:00.002+08:00

Dinner at just acia again. I had been having my dinner there for the past three weeks. haha..

Retail therapy works for me together with a piece of sinful chocolate cake. HAHA. Serotonin and dopamine make me happy yea.

take time to realise what i want? perhaps it is. This or that? hmmm...

2008-03-16T22:44:00.003+08:00

What do i want out of my life? What is my passion? What is my next step?

There are simply too many questions marks running through my mind.. I am at the crossroad now.

Where shld i head? I seriously have no answer.

i guess i need time.

2008-03-09T20:01:00.009+08:00

230208~met up with biennale friends:)

oh man.. my eyesbags ahhh

Lunch @seafood harvest

240208~met up with van and zhiyi

see our zhiyi is smiling so happily. lol

290208~Darling's leap birthday party

Happy birthday Ms Geraldine Lek!

did ya see engtheng? hah

080308~trip to ikea with Ms lek

I luv this mirror very much!

Dinner @Just Acia

Note: This katsu set meal is selling @6.30(inclusive of gst) with free flow ice cream, softdrinks and cappucino. very worth it! haha

Song~ yesterday by leona lewis

I just can't believe your gone,

till waiting for morning to come,

wanna see if the sun wil rise,

even without you by my side.

When we had so much in store,

tell me what is it i'm reaching for.

When we're through building memories,

i'll hold yesterday in my heart,

in my heart.

they can take tomorrow and the plans we made,

they can take the music that we'll never play.

All the broken dreams,

take everything,

just take it away,

but they can never have yesterday.

They can take the future that we'll never know,

they can take the places that we said we would go.

All the broken dreams,

take everything,

just take it away,

but they can never have yesterday.

You always used to say,

i should be thankful for everyday.

Heaven knows what the future holds,

or atleast how the story goes.

(but i never believed them 'til now.)

I know i'll see you again i'm sure.

No it's not selfish to ask for more.

One more night, one more day,

one more smile on you face,

but they can't take yesterday.

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made,

they can take the music that we'll never play.

All the broken dreams, take everything, j

ust take it away, but they can never have yesterday.

2008-02-17T18:12:00.005+08:00

Poly life had come to end two days ago. Three years ago, i stepped into tp with fear and worries and now i left tp with losta of memories. Certainly i had enjoyed myself these three years knowing many good friends whom i will cherish forever. A new chapter of life is starting for all of us.. Perhaps there are still many uncertanities at this point of our life and we might be feeling very loss, i am sure we will soon find a way which belong to us.

GOODBYE TPOLY and TG02.

2008-02-05T21:10:00.000+08:00

IRISH COFFEE

Cocktail consisting of hot coffee

irish whiskey

and sugar stirred

then with thick cream

floated on top

I want drink authentic irish coffee la!

2008-01-28T22:25:00.000+08:00

当昨天画上句点

何不就让它悄悄无言

看今天更光鲜

别忘了还有明天

选你将来的志愿

一步步再慢慢去实现

不管路有多远有多险有多倦

2008-01-26T22:34:00.000+08:00

I would DO my best and not TRY my best

TRY my best would have meant half the battle is lost

There is not only one path for me to choose?

Perhaps not heading this path might open up more ways for me ?

2008-01-14T22:26:00.000+08:00

four more weeks left at tp

what will the future holds for me?

2007-12-29T21:04:00.000+08:00

3 more days to 2008! it means i'm turning 20.. stop reminding myself abt it. it saddened me

what are your new year's resolutions? have you thought about it ?

mmm.... I hope to see YOGA LIN YOU JIA in person!!

HAHAHAHAH.. it would be great if my wish does come true... ohhhh!!!

ohyaa... i realised my face is way too chubby.. i wish i could slim down on my face.. ehh ? lol

Sch is reopening soon. i still want my holidays laa.. :(

you-tubing time :))

2007-12-07T20:36:00.000+08:00

I realise i got many things left undone... PBL seriously sucks to the core... all the projects are piling up. I need to get them done over the weekends. ahhh!! and i keep procrastinating.. i want a break! can i ?

the weather is making me feel so cold.. :(

2007-11-25T21:28:00.000+08:00

tommorow is a brand new start for me..

go go jia you kai lin!! faith is all i need :)

2007-11-05T23:11:00.000+08:00

oh no~

I am so tired extremely tired...

I desperately need a break!!!!

2007-10-28T22:00:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging for quite sometime.. was looking through the past entries just now..
memories of the past appear on my mind be it happy or sad..

reminiscing the past?!

realise i have not met up with one of my friends for almost a year? unbelievable.. we lived not very far and yet seldom have the chance to meet up... i guess we are so caught up with our own stuff that we do not have anytime to spare... how miserable it is ?

SIP is ending... it will eventually ends ..

哪里有彩虹告诉我?

2007-09-26T20:00:00.000+08:00

there's a fine fine line

There's a fine, fine line between a lover and a friend;

There's a fine, fine line between reality and pretend;And you never know 'til you reach the top if it was worth the uphill climb.

There's a fine, fine line between love and a waste of time.
There's a fine, fine line between a fairy tale and a lie;

and there's a fine, fine line between "You're wonderful" and "Goodbye."

I guess if someone doesn't love you back it isn't such a crime,But there's a fine, fine line between love

And a waste of your time.And I don't have the time to waste on you anymore.I don't think that you even know what you're looking for.

For my own sanity, I've got to close the doorAnd walk away...Oh...

There's a fine, fine line between together and not
And there's a fine, fine line between what you wanted and what you got.

You gotta go after the things you want while you're still in your prime...T
there's a fine, fine line between loveAnd a waste of time.

2007-09-22T22:10:00.000+08:00

what i saw is you lying on the bed staring blankly.

what are you thinking? how are you feeling? I was staring at you and we exchanged eye contact .

i should have given you a smile and not a sad face. perhaps it might makes you feel better.

you did not smile. i haven seen your smile for a long time..

it's part and parcel of life.. i console myself..

you gotta be okay...

2007-06-26T19:14:00.000+08:00

phobia for blood smear

it's okay. i believe things will get better as time pass yea

have confidence in yourself!

2007-06-23T16:30:00.000+08:00

笑一笑没什么过不了 :)

2007-06-19T09:39:00.000+08:00

I'm back from KL couldnt sleep so here i am blogging. before i went KL, met up with my all darlings. It had been a great outing and thanks for the belated birthday celebration you guys had organised for mee. so touched man...lol.

well, we had dinner at manhatten fish market after deciding for a long time. it's quite diffucult to make a decision when there are more people. nevertheless, i had fun. heex.

after dinner, we headed to ark cafe at safra town club recommended by vanessa. initially we had no intention to go but i was attracted by the drink so you know we ended up there. lol. nice ambience with great songs and it's mainly chinese and cantonese songs. darlings had a lill surprise for me and kel asking the singers on stage to sing birthday song for us.. kinda paiseh as there wasn't many people there.. and they sang five versions of birthday songs. lol. Geraldine ,if you are reading this, yea, i am mesmerised by weiliang's voice. LOLS. actually, mickey mouse also not bad laa. lols

manhatten fish market

mocha

look at the watermelon..so thoughtful of them to have bought this for me

that's all! looking forward to the next outing with them and to the ark cafe.. =)

2007-06-12T11:01:00.000+08:00

it had been sometimes since i last blog. cobwebs' been building up.haha.well, tommorow will be the day when we know where we will be posted to for SIP. though mr poh said i am posted to haematology, he seems so uncertain. makes me so worry. hopefully, what he told me was correct. anyway,i not really looking forward to SIP. sigh. one thing for good is that there is no tests and quiz.

ohya. i will be going on a holiday to kuala lumpur on thurs.. haha.. a time for me to play hard and shop... haha.. seven weeks of school had drained me completely.. makes me lose interest in studies. well, i think i not very good at handling stress and time management. that is why i hardly felt happy and tense during this term. eh i think everyone of us feel this way.

2 more days to go!! haha

a smile to overcome all difficulties =)

2007-05-24T23:13:00.000+08:00

feeling blue blue blue and blue!!

nothing seems to be able to make me happy even the chocolate ice cream does not

what is wrong with me this week ?

school sucks!!!!!!

2007-05-18T00:56:00.000+08:00

fear and worry are all i have now

2007-05-10T20:53:00.000+08:00

empty mind

2007-05-09T18:56:00.000+08:00

can i take a break

away from everything

i just want to escape

2007-04-28T19:38:00.000+08:00

i realise as we grow up, we tend to get more emo as things become more complicated more difficult for us to handle and take it.

we often find it hard to let go even if it hurts alot. heart to heart talk always ended me in a emo state. it makes me think a lot and also the past and stories happen to my friends.

i am glad that i have always a few close friends to rely on, to listen to my whining when i am down. though they might not be of any help to the situation i am facing, i know that i am not alone. you know, i fear loneliness.

do not allow yourself to be trapped in the past in those memories that makes your heart aches. i know sometimes it is an involunatary action as many things seem to be able trigger memories of the incident or that particular person but we can try. Staying happy is a choice not a must.

2007-04-28T19:24:00.000+08:00

9teen Birthday

(27april2007)

First birthday cake

my second cake

2007-04-26T20:01:00.001+08:00

I lost blood again yesterday, had gone for the HEP B blood screening test. I had been losing a lot of blood for this week after the capilary puncture blood collection on mon.

and heard from Ms chew that we will be drawing blood soon for our clincial chem lab.. i think i will have to get used to it if i am posted to haematology lab for SIP. talking about SIP, we finally have chosen our preferences for SIP. it is so difficult to make a decision. well, i had chosen medical/clinical lab over R &D.

my preferences

1)haematology/blood bank

2) clinical chem

3)histopathology

and there is NO ALLOWANCES given!!!

does it scare you off ? lol

4ml of blood

And SIP starts on 25th of June till 7th of Nov. No anticipation at all.

2007-04-23T20:17:00.000+08:00

first lesson of year 3 was haem lab

got a shock when i knew we had to do capillary puncture that was to collect blood from my finger

mm... it wasn't that pain at all, it's like ant bite.. i was being pricked thrice just to get that little amount of blood.

duno why my arm is still feeling a bit numb.. i guess it was psychological effects

it may seems like a simple task but it took me ages to collect suffiicent blood from juexiu..both my gloves and tables were fulled of blood stains.. so bloody. i think i can never be a nurse.

every drops of blood is so precious..

my blood

2007-04-23T11:26:00.000+08:00

Sch is starting TODAY

and i am still in the holiday mood

but afterall, i still prefer schooling..

being a student is far better than working.

2007-04-20T14:53:00.000+08:00

Pee-tures

Ubin memories

YAY!! braced through steep slopes, rain and scorching hot sun

Dinner at Village

Random pee-tures

the caterpillar walk..lol

2007-04-18T21:42:00.000+08:00

timetable will be out tml at 10am

pray hard that the outcome will be the one i want

and i realise i am left with 5 more modules to go..

clinical chem , haeamatology , blood banking , lab management and quality assurance and medical microbiology

still vividly remb that it's blood banking that attracts me to this course and in a few more days time i will be in year 3.

soon, i will be going SIP and doing my MP... ohhss..

2007-04-13T22:08:00.001+08:00

all of the sudden, i am feeling so emo.. ohhs..

2007-04-11T20:29:00.000+08:00

感动越是深刻

寂寞就越伤人喔

每个人的心里

都会有一段伤痕

eh.. though this does not reflect my current feelings i found it so true..

2007-04-06T12:33:00.000+08:00

some people you kept bumping into them but nvr have the chance to say hi

wouldn't it be great if one day ya are given the chance ?

eh.. the feelings is so... i duno how to describe

2007-04-03T17:39:00.000+08:00

went shopping at bugis and vivo with dearest sis again. watched movie and shopped ytd. i will never get tired when it comes to shopping but not window shopping. haha

then rested at bugis cafe and ordered my fav drink.

MOCHA makes my day=)

bus-ed down to vivo intending to buy dougnuts.. heex.

look yummillicious..

shopping again tml with my darlings ... life is great with no stress and shopping everyday.

i realised i behave differently in front of different people..some people thought of me as a brave and independent gal some a muddlehead and weak gal.

so which one is the actually me ? i think i belong to the latter.. i am just putting on a shell to protect myself.

RANDOM THOUGHTS.. haha

2007-04-01T23:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY APRIL FOOL'S DAY

i was fooled thrice today. twice by my colleagues and once by sis.. so stupid i am..

i finally believe in miracle.. there is.. hoping i can still work in the same location and can have dinner with my dear geraldine.. are ya reading it ?? ya are laughing right ?

today someone told me a story about himself.. i think you are selfish. No, i should say guys are selfish and yet you said you are the one who is hurt. i can't believe.

2007-03-29T14:48:00.000+08:00

I am BORED staying at home!!!

2007-03-27T12:37:00.000+08:00

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2007-03-27T12:10:00.000+08:00

now thinking back, i think i was really drunk on sun..

well, i had made a fool of myself in front of my colleagues.. i couldnt stop help laughing whenever i thought of it... i was so weak that i could not stand straight.. lols..

Let me intro the two cocktails which i had drunk..

Bloody Mary is a cocktail containing vodka, tomato juice, and usually other spices or flavorings such as Worcestershire sauce, Tabasco sauce, beef consomme or bouillon, horseradish, celery or celery salt, salt, black pepper, cayenne pepper, and lemon juice.

i din noe celery was meant to make us feel high..

it tastes HORRIBLE!

Sex on the beach is a cocktail made of vodka, peach schnapps (Archers, Peachtree, DeKuyper), cranberry juice, and orange juice

2007-03-15T20:46:00.000+08:00

heart shaped tree trunk ...unique yea?

2007-03-13T19:35:00.001+08:00

omg.. results are coming out!!

2007-03-11T12:20:00.000+08:00

学习

人在逆境中学习勇敢，

在困境中学习坚强，

在悲伤中学习遗忘，

在执著里学习释放。

Copyright: hanqun

2007-03-10T08:47:00.000+08:00

sengkang-tanjong pajar-tampines-clementi-sengkang

I went to all those places yesterday all by myself .

working had trained me to be a stronger and independent girl. ps: all along, i thought i had grown stronger but i realised i am not. people always thought i am strong. perhaps i look strong on the outside but i am just putting on a brave front. I am not!

after working, i realised that i had not actually grown up, i am used to rely on people around me be it at home or in school. i am so reliant on others that i will be at loss when i am all alone.

2007-03-05T20:44:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, i was feeling so depressing.

i hate this kind of feeling especially when you are all alone. it makes me feel more worse.

I wondering who can i rely on? I am tired.

nvm. I will brace up. Use a positive attitude towards obstacles.

never give up. keep on fighting!!!

2007-03-03T08:37:00.000+08:00

a challenging or a boring day today ? Working was tiring yesterday. I sood there for about 4 hours trying to approach customers but i was rejected by every single one of them whom i approached. this reminds of me the csas question i had prepared: how to handle rejections. ... for the first time i am so glad that i only need to work for three days.

11 to 9 today. even longer working hours.

2007-03-02T12:54:00.000+08:00

Iam so fed up with blogger. whatever i posted, it could not be published. I wonder what is wrong... ahhh...

Suddenly the urge to work diminished, i rather stay at home watch youtube, sleep and do nothing. what's the point of working so hard? for what? money ? then end up sacrificing so much of my time not able to spend with family and friends. aren't holiday meant for us to unwind ourselves, to be released from stress we faced ?

three more hours to work. I wonder what kind of challenge will i face? nasty customers?yucks.. no way please. bless me with luck. i hope at least i can sell one today.

2007-03-01T20:43:00.000+08:00

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2007-03-01T20:08:00.001+08:00

zzzzz

2007-02-28T23:31:00.000+08:00

遥望着你背影有孤单太苍白

我多么想陪着你走过人山人海

当天空变灰白你的忧伤澎湃

我多么想走进你紧锁的心海

我一直都在你身后等待等你有一天回过头看我

我的笑送给你希望你快乐你的难过都给我

关于你的一切我都好好收藏着等你有一天能感觉到我

就算我在你世界渺小像一颗尘埃

我也会给你我所有的光和热

我鼓起勇气呐喊你要听得见我

不许你再孤单要你拥抱我给的温暖

HANA KIMI RAWKS!!!

I am addicted to this show and in love with wu zun...
i think it's so sweet to be able to stay besides someone you like, be there to protect her, give her comfort when she needs, let her know you are someone you can rely on without worries

it's simply too sweet.

always there for her.

2007-02-28T20:39:00.000+08:00

Exams are finally over and it's time for me to blog.. bphar was tough.. ahhh.. killer paper man.. it does affect me but it did not last long. maybe i had learnt to take thing nore easy. no use brooding over things that had alry happened. whatevr, look at the bright side.

i found a job!! the sad thing is i only need to work three times a week and it's from fri to sun... i will be selling printers.. ohhs. i know nuts about printers.. hope training provided for me will help.. take it as a challenge.. and i need to find another job on weekdays.. hope i will be able to find it soon.. i want to be busy busy busy... haha... i am feeling so relax.. no longer have to be looking at those notes.. though tempoary for 7 weeks..

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY MS GERALDINE LEK!!!

DARLING~

Remb you are 19 this year not 4.75 years.. haha.. meet up soon, k? i miss ya so much... may ya always be happy and all the best for everything yea.. i know you are very busy with school stuffs all that but do remb to take good care of yourself.

2007-02-24T10:02:00.000+08:00

During the day I need some benzodiazepine antagonist

At night I need some benzodiazepine. I just can’t fall asleep...

2 more days to go…

2007-02-16T22:49:00.000+08:00

woohoo..~~MCT and DDCT~~.. 2 more papers to go..

mmm.. kinda feel as if exams are over.. good? hope time pass slower bit so at least i can enjoy my cny and i am so looking forward to reunion dinner.. yeshie..it's steamboat.. hehe..

in the mean time enjoy cny before the real torture starts..

happy chinese new year in advance!!

and today is the last day of year 2 sem 2.. no more sadness.. lol..

times flies..one sem had just gone and what awaits me ?

2007-02-06T20:25:00.000+08:00

If you think you can, you can.

If you think you can't, you can't

it's that simple ?

Well, i think i will be suffering a breakdown soon

so many things left undone... two tests coming and the horrible exams..
Mug Mug Mug ...

2007-01-31T13:10:00.000+08:00

Ahhhh... i duno what happened to me today

i felt so fed up with myself.. feeling so fan.. ohhs.. what is happening? can someone tell me? fed up with myself for not able to listen to what huang yan said ? haizz.. i duno..

i feel like i am falling sick soon.. one moment feeling cold the next moment warm..

2007-01-28T22:03:00.000+08:00

mmm...i ought to be studying for ddct now.haven been studying much on ddct these two days.went pp ytd with sis just some window shopping.din get to buy anithing..ohhs so sad.. cny is coming soon and have yet to buy enough clothes..this reminds me that i wll be spending my cny mugging for exams.. what a spoilsport man.

and went chinatown today with my parents . quite sometime since we dined together.. it was packed with people together with the cny atmopshere.. if ya wanna experience, go chinatown.. haha.. again window shopping.. din get everything.. saddening..

rather spent time blogging than mugging.. excuses to take a short break laa.

received news that xu wei lun died becus of car accident. I quite like her. she died? too sudden.. life is indeed fragile. =(

2007-01-25T15:16:00.000+08:00

Ok... Before i start studying for MCT let me blog first
I seriously dun feel like studying laa. i feeling so drained out and tired. i need motivations to do well for everything.. i hate it when i do not put in my best effort.. i feel like i am letting myself now.. I care for my results and that is why it affects me a lot.. you noe.. ahh!!!

where has all my motivations to do well gone to ?? it used to be strong but it getting weaker and weaker.. i hate this kind of feeling when trying to study hard but you couldnt.. i going nuts..

ohhs.. pls give me some energy to go on..
ok.. Just do ya best.. Keep that in mind!!!KAILIN...